Episode 2 if I dont know what I’m doing. A series where a test out my podcast equipment, get used to being on camera and just talk about stuff. Today’s episode I talk about a dream I had.
It has been way to long since I have posted. I have gone through many ups and downs, both physically and mentally. I have a ways to go bit the journey home is under way. I began writing again a few days ago and hope to back up to full speed (or the best speed I can do now) very soon! I look forward to being a writer again.
I have been so bad with the blogs. I had to have another surgery earlier this month and it had me super down where I just didn’t want to write. I think now those are the times that I need to write more. I had taken so much pride in keeping up with my post I hate that it ist the first thing I stop doing when I feel sick or really depressed. I need to do better, hell I need to write or post on days other than Monday and Thursday. I need to have more human interaction and not be so closed of. I need to believe in myself.
Sick of feeling down
I’m sick I’m tired and I’m hurt. All words are negative right now so I will refrain from spreading that.
hey world i dont have much to say today
nothing about heartache or even the love of a sunny day
so i took the time to write this just to say
i am a human being
and being that is o k
I was going to write about me be nervous about growing old and not having someone to share my life with but then the captain America civil war trailer came out with spider man and that’s all about now! Have a great day people
this weekend i truly see why my therapist says that being social is key to getting my mental health back on track. i have been feeling really down and upset that i havent been spending much time with my friends and people i really like due to many circumstances. i was sad and angry about it a lot. i just stopped talking to people and facebook kept my anger going because it showed me those friends have been out and about. i now seems really petty but it affected me. so with that in mind i made it a point to talk to as many other people as possible and make plans to get out of the house. i got sick and then had a few plans fall through but one still held up. i fought through the illness and did my best to stay positive to ensure that atleast my Saturday plans went through. its strange to me as a writer that i dont want to write about such a positive experience..i had such a good time talking and dancing and just being out with people that i didnt even really now to then have the great experience of old friends showing up at the party and catching up on years of missed time. it elevated a lot of the stress and anger i was feeling towards my friends which i believe now is mostly anger at myself for not being in a position where i can go out and enjoy myself on a regular basis i am glad i was able to go out and make a new memory. i need to do more of that.