i wish i could truly express the thoughts and emotions that i am feeling right now. mostly i am feeling numb and disappointed in myself. why am i feeling this way? because i had hope. hope that maybe just maybe we didn’t need another example that this system was not meant for us. the system that more than 200 years of free labor built. the system that for 300 plus years has used our skin color to manipulate motivate and rape the earth and her people. for a moment there i though we could believe that the future that i long for in my comics and my writings and my poems may be closer than just a fleeting dream. i hate when i am wrong. never forgive, never forget.