words cannot begin to express how i feel. i want to show you how much you have meant to me but it all seems so unreal. you were a constant presence. your words showed up where ever i went. you smile was on my twitter feed, facebook wall and instagram page whenever i needed it. you showed me a path to which i aspire. a portrait of intelligence and strength that i had no choice but to admire. i cant lie. i want to be like you. i wanted to hand you my first book of poems and say thank you. that wont happen now. so i will do my best to honor you by being my best. rest in paradise, rest in power, rest in peace my inspiration, my queen!
well hello there. how is every one doing? i was taking a break from here after the 30 day challenge to focus on a few things. i have submitted my first two comic book reviews for a new blog site that will be up the first of June. i am very proud of them and will of course link and share once everything is up and running. i was also beginning work as a social media manger to help a friend out but learned it may not be such a good thing to go into business with friends. meet some cool nigerian peeps through facebook and of course brought some more books, most notably the harlem hellfighters by max brooks. yes i will be reviewing that one next. besides trying to figure out what the next step is with my book and oddly enough working on the second, nothing new to report.
Who is Darrin? It’s hard to say sometimes depending on his sugar level but I hope he is an honest man. I hope that in both times of anger and of great joy that he is honest. When life is a rollercoaster of emotions, financial stability, and physical well being throughout it all I hope he is honest. With honesty he will be able to find the courage to fight through the hard times. With honesty he can insure that the giod times are bountiful. With honesty he can be his own rock while others waiver. With honesty his decision will not weigh him down. With honesty when he accomplishes his goals and dreams he will not have to question his journey. With honesty he can keep his demons in check. With honesty he can turn enemies into allies. With honesty he can learn to be a man without any male role models. If he can do all that with honesty he may be able to find happiness.
then a wife maybe
let me know if i have missed a step or two. trying to keep the momentum going from the 30 day challenge so you will be seeing a lot more quick hits!
we made it! yes we made it! wow! this has been such a pleasure and enjoyable task. i learned a lot. i have shared a lot and have come to appreciate this outlet to communicate even more. i started this blog not to long ago to promote my writings. not knowing that it would be the outlet that has encouraged my writings the most. i got real personal in the last 30 days. i have let people into a world that i was very guarded about, only sharing it through poems, never letting you in directly. i hope i have changed that and take this momentum of writing to you for 30 days straight to bring you more of my works!!!!!!
a new study just came out saying that cursing is good for you and since i have had such crappy days lately…..FUCK THIS BULLSHIT! I AM SO SICK OF HALF-ASS OTHERFUCKERS THINKING THAT THE LTLLIE THAT THEY DO IS WORTH SOMETHING. I AM SICK OF PEOPLE BEING GODDAMN SARCASTIC BUT NOT FUCKING SMART! STUPID SHIT FACE OPTIONS WITHOUT A SHRED OF KNOWLEDGE! DUMB ASS BITCHES TALKING SHIT ABOUT BAD DADS BUT WON’T OPEN THEIR MOUTHS ABOUT HORRIBLE ASS MOTHERS DESTROYING OUR COMMUNITIES!!! FUCKING SICK OF DOING THE RIGHT THING FEELING LIKE CRAP!! I FUCKING HATE IM IN LOVED WITH A MARRIED WOMAN WHO IS IN LOVE WITH HUSBAND WHO CHEATS ON HER BUT IS TOO AFRAID TO LET HIM GO SO I HAD TO LET HER GO! I FUCKING CANT STAND THAT MY MIND DOESN’T WORK AS WELL AS IT USED TO SINCE I GOT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL AND PIECE OF SHIT CUNT BAG DOCTORS DIDNT WARN ME OFF ITSHIT! FUCK! BASTARD! BITCH! ahhhhhhh ok i am done. for now. i think.
Questions from a former student of mine who is about to get married that i will now answer in paragraph form.
Love means many things to me but it for most is means a feeling of overwhelming devotion and caring for another human being. ( the difference between love & lust is lust is more of a physical want and desire usually devoid of an emotion connection. love has those same feelings but with empathy, kindness and respect in the forefront) the 3 biggest problems i have faced in a relationship are lack of trust, lack of communication and cultural differences. the 3 most important things to have to keep a relationship happy, healthy & stable for me are open and honest communication, a genuine like for that person or in better words a good friendship and economic stability. is it more important to be single or rebound with people after a breakup is a tough question. depending on how the former relationship ended time alone to heal could be what is best for you but sometimes you really do need another person to help you get over a broken heart. you just have to be honest about a rebound situation and not to confuse it with love. when things get hard in a relationship i choose to try to fix it. all relationships are a work in progress you cant just give up at the first sign of trouble. new elements may have been added into the relationship, people also grow and change so there maybe something new for you to discover about that other person. is intimacy & romance more important to you or communication & friendship? i left this question as is because i don’t believe that you can have one with out the other. you cant not experience true intimacy with someone if you aren’t friends first and can share your inner most thoughts with that other person and you cant be romantic if you are unable to communicate your feeling to someone or able to hear and understand theirs and what they like and desire.
i hope this helps theoharris!!!!!
everyone needs an artistic outlet. if you are working in the arts you especially need an artistic outlet! having a few conversations with my friends in the arts and other fields have all come t realize that without some form of artistic expression that they don’t make money off of that they would go crazy!!! just something to express themselves without being judged. so being a chicagoan i was just wondering since we have destroyed some many art programs in school and the government funded ones. is that a direct correlation to the rise in violent crimes being done by kids in the city?
i would like to thank victoria wilder . i would like to thank her for adding me in this 30 day challenge. i would like to thank her for coming into my life like a sudden rain storm that you didn’t know you needed until the rain began to fall. i would like to thank her for her shirts. i would like to thank her trusting me with her writing. i would like to thank her for fighting for her dreams and never ever giving up. i would like to thank her for her honesty when she is feeling down. most of all i would like to thank her for being her. thank you victoria