i cant take it
another student lost
he didnt make it
i hate this
when my first thought im glad he lived this long
there is something wrong when we happy to see just 18
how did making it to your next birthday become such a big thing
we never saw eye to eye
but i start to cry when i think about how you made me laugh when you used to fight
about what you were doing with your life
we used to argue about what was wrong and what was right
but it didnt stop us from hoping that we both made it through the night
so in the morning you would laugh when i would scream
I miss you and I shouldn’t
I want you but it wouldn’t
Change the fact that we came together at the most inappropriate of times.
I need you but it won’t help.
I miss you as if you were my breath.
I reach out to you through the darkness that surrounds my heart.
I hate that my last goo memories seem to be of you holding me and everything else is just a lie to write down on the age.
i went to lay down for two seconds
for the first time today i wasnt distracted by
or just moving something
so i went to lay down for two seconds
and the first thoughts that came to mind was how much i want to hurt these people
i need to break out of this fucking depression and get my shit together
and to my fucking so called friends who think i need to check in on them but don’t fucking check in with me and don’t read this blog to even know half the shit im dealing with FUCK YOU!