if you follow me on my personal facebook page, you may have noticed that i have been posting a lot of lyrics to love songs. am i in love currently? No. well, not in the way you are thinking. i believe i am learning to love myself and in doing so i find myself wanting to be in a place of love. not romantic love but a love that brings me peace and calm. not saying that being loved by someone else cant do those things but two people always create friction. i dont want friction in my heart right now. hell, i couldnt handle it right now. So what i am saying is find a love song even if you are not in love and just enjoy the very thought that love does exists.
i know by looking at the dates of some of my post that i suck. i am relearning what hard work and consistency means. so since my last update lets see, i found a job, loved the job, found a girl, starting hating the job, quit the job, lost the girl and trying my best to overcome my issues in therapy. i hope to get way better with post because doing this entire time i have been writing just not posting and i will get better with that.
They hadn’t seen each other in months. He thought this would be the perfect time. Her work took her around the world, his work kept him at home but it was ok. they spoke to each other almost every night, even with the time difference, they made sure to message or video chat with each other. when she arrived home it the house was dimly lit with the 50 or so candles that he had carefully placed to make sure it was the perfect mood, she looked perfect by candle light. It was all hugs and kisses and thank you’s and i missed you. He had prepared her favorite meal but dinner was oddly quiet. He asked was she feeling alright and she said yes so he got up from the table, played the song they had first dance to and asked would she care to dance. She said yes.
As they danced he felt that embraced he had missed so much, smelled the perfume that made him smile and knew this was a feeling that he wanted for the rest of his life. She pulled him closer to her and placed her arms around his neck and whispered “I want you inside of me.” He squeezed her tighter and said “what else do you want from me?” She said ” I want you to love me forever.” He moved his hand from the small of her back to reach into his left pants pocket to pull out a box when she stopped him and put his arm back around her. Then she stood on her toes and brought his ear closer to her lips, she whispered “will you marry me?” He said “Yes.”