the simple and horrible realization is
that no matter how much someone has fucked you up in the head
messed up your ability to function as a human being
it’s still all ON YOU
the don’t have to take any responsibility or blame
you hurt yourself
IT’S ON YOU
you hurt someone else in a state of suicide or depression
IT’S ON YOU
finding the help you need
ON YOU
learning how not to be this way
ON YOU
maybe knowing that can motivate you or give you a sense of power
but right now
it all just feels
shitty
spending the rest of my life fixing what you broke in side of me
