Tag Archives: enjoyment

Today’s Date Being Social

this weekend i truly see why my therapist says that being social is key to getting my mental health back on track. i have been feeling really down and upset that i havent been spending much time with my friends and people i really like due to many circumstances. i was sad and angry about it a lot. i just stopped talking to people and facebook kept my anger going because it showed me those friends have been out and about. i now seems really petty but it affected me. so with that in mind i made it a point to talk to as many other people as possible and make plans to get out of the house. i got sick and then had a few plans fall through but one still held up. i fought through the illness and did my best to stay positive to ensure that atleast my Saturday plans went through. its strange to me as a writer that i dont want to write about such a positive experience..i had such a good time talking and dancing and just being out with people that i didnt even really now to then have the great experience of old friends showing up at the party and catching up on years of missed time. it elevated a lot of the stress and anger i was feeling towards my friends which i believe now is mostly anger at myself for not being in a position where i can go out and enjoy myself on a regular basis i am glad i was able to go out and make a new memory. i need to do more of that.

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Football Sunday (three hours)

for three hours a week i get to pretend you  are all dead

for three hours a week i get to live without second guessing myself

for three hours a week i get to feel safe

for three hours a week i get to feel free

for three hours a week i get to feel like i am apart of something that understands me

for three hours a week i get to enjoy being me without critique

for three hours a week i get to feel like i own my own stuff

for three hours a week i get to for get how much i hate you

for three hours a week i get to feel like i want to be alive

for three hours a week i dont feel like shit all the time

for three hours i get to be a man

for three hours a week i feel like being me is ok

#beardown