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today’s date

i am depressed

i have been for awhile now but i was working on it

the exercise, the looking for a job, getting back to writing

well today i just went to sleep

in the middle of chatting with a friend and watching youtube videos

just stopped

and went to sleep

wasnt watching anything depressing, except for the advancement of the new tech for our robot over lords

thank you jessica chobot

and me and the friend were having a fun conversation about burning breakfast

i just stopped put my head on a pillow and went to sleep

my stomach feels much better tho

so i got that going for me

and the days not over

will find some more things to feel good about and maybe some motivation

Day 12. A Paragraph A Day: 30 Day Challenge

i have been slacking on a few commitments that i have had lately. things that i should have done months ago and it has been weighing  down. i was trying my best to fight through whatever it is that has been slowing me down. i have done that with little to no success, in fact i have failed miserably. i have been producing nothing but crap. it goes back to that cloud i was talking about a few post back. today i decided to change my strategy instead of trying to fight through it i have confronted it! i have been cleaning, cooking and reading books that have nothing to do with what i need to write about, oh and a little video game playing. it has been working about great! the cloud around me doesn’t seem so strong and i feel relieved enough were i know i can get back on track and focus. if i want writing to be my career i know i need to get over these little bumps a lot more quickly and calmly!!!

Climate Change

 

He made it up the mountain they way they told him to. It was not as difficult as they had said. He arrived at the mouth of the cave it looked just like they said it would. The woman was standing there just like they said she would. They were right about everything, he was afraid. The woman accepted his gift and asked him why he came. He began, I am sick. Every year after the snows melt and the days grow longer I become sick. I sweat and am overcome with fever my temper is uncontrollable and my demeanor is coarse.  I beg of you to help me. The woman just looked at him. Climate change she said. The man did not understand. She continued, I can see it as clear as day you need to move. Your blood is boiling, your memory is moving and your mind cannot slow itself down. You fell abused, wasted your mind cannot forget the punishments your decisions have brought upon you. You cannot forgive the people who have disappointed you and the faces that have spurned you. It fuels your soul the anger inside of you. It is time for a climate change. Join the snows to cool your blood and come to the forest to let your mind remember the old ways to work and feel. Return to peace of the wind, the steps of the dear and the power of the place you have left behind. Once you find it without place it within and the power of you shall begin again.

titles

there is a fundamental change when words are rearranged to become symbols

like when me myself and I isn’t enough

when taking two words that have always been there

put them together and they become

us

you were a girl before i meet you a friend before i kissed you

girlfriend turns all our activities into a rush

i rush to let the world know

a rush to let the worries go

a rush for our bodies to be more than just close

a rush to mark a fictional territory

a rush to complete a new story

a rush to solidify us

when the claim is not you and i

mutual friends

whispers

paranoia

lies

all words powerful that become deadly when added to

us

a thing that should have been pure

tainted by words we have heard, used and claimed before

now weigh  heavy on our hearts and lust

now there are words like

anger

domestic abuse

accused

and used

and now the worst

break and up

we had to say goodbye no matter how hard we tried

it was the wrong time to be

us