What’s going on people. So…..I have been trying something new on my personal youtube channel and if you have a sec please check it out!

What’s going on people. So…..I have been trying something new on my personal youtube channel and if you have a sec please check it out!
facebook status istagram post tumblr blogs and snapchat story videos
youtube shares and twitter rants i wrote about this love it seems if i tried to stop i just cant
an entire note books of poems and more than a few blogs
i try no contact but mutual friends make things hard
so i write about it people tell me to move on
so i write about her muse is so strong
so it seems that i have more than just a thing for the way that those island hips swing
it should have been just a fling just a sexual thing when i learned about her ring i should have stopped everything
we did
that didnt last long
even in denial forbidden love can be too strong
maybe some of the force was because it was so wrong
all i know is i write about it often a love i should have never had
a love i lost i should have never had
a love i lost i should have never grabbed on to
tried my hardest to hold on to
so how do i not write about it if i still long to
hold you kiss you love you
so i write about how much i miss you
so i write about how much i wish i never knew you
i write about how my heart cant seem to heal
i write about how heartache is beyond real
so i write about how low i feel
and i write
darkness becomes light and wrong is made right by the movement of my pen to paper my fingers on the keys and then i can breathe and think of good tings and hope you are happy
then i write about that
then it leads me to write about other things
so i write about it
i need to write today
but lets re-watch game of thrones
i need to write something today
but after i put that new YouTube video on
i need to write something today
to ward off the sadness and the depression
i need to write something today
to pay for a life i wanted to give up
i need to write something today
but you just thought about that girl you meet a few days ago and pornhub is ya best buddy
i need to write something today
to make up for all those times you had a clever line and made a facebook, twitter, instagram post instead of butting in work to make a poem to express the true complexities of what you were trying to say
i need to write something today
because you admitted that you wanted to give up on your hopes and dreams and become a wage slave
i need to write something today
because for a second the anger took control and all i wanted to do was hurt people even if they deserved it, i need to stop and take these thoughts and turn them into actions that can become the success and freedom and love that i crave
i need to write something today
to express that yes i love you, that i love the individual that is me, i love the me that my people created, that i love my people, and yes i need to say these things out loud but by all that is and i mean that by all that is, writing it down just makes it seem all the more real
i need to write something today. because if i write it down today i may just find a reason to embrace this life and want to stay
im glad i wrote something today
Number 1
i’m in my own world/money and girls/going out early evenings that dont end to 8 AM/I hope this indulgence isn’t a sin/cause i don’t want this to end/the first time i felt free from all the pain that binds me/you know what/fuck that shit/and don’t remind me/ when life treated me grimy but i shot that bitch/now life is fine/ i worked hard for my happiness/peace is mine/peace in mind body and spirit/adversity I do not fear it/nothing will dampen my shine/hate and jealousy bring it on/ my intelligence and determination four times strong/
Number 2
girl said i’m cold hearted/useless emotions have departed/love,compassion, and caring a waste to me/i found out i live better when my only concern is me/
Number 3
laugh at your ass/dirty motherfucker/splash some water on your ass/super soak ya/the h20 will choke ya swallow don’t spit/the overflow is to much for you bitch/
if i find more i will post soon lol #youth