i got high as hell the other day
hoping to give my mind a rest and some play
to ignore the dumb shit i seem to produce daily
to work hard be strong get better no really
i was taught that is how you get ahead
forge through and all will be given and revealed
have faith keep standing be made of steel
yea as i watch those who dont do shit just steal
but anyway
i got high as fuck the other day
hoping to relax and just ignore all the obstacles in my way
but rest cant even come to me in that state
while everyone gets to be dumb and blissful
for me another lesson to learn was on the way
i got high as a kite taking flight on the moon the other day
i felt my body break and shatter into a billion pieces
all without a place all shattered through time and space
i felt every tug and pull every splash and crash
i felt every single moment and why they never last
the presents the multiple futures the discarded pasts
i felt the first grain of sand that became glass
i saw the decision that i made from good to bad
i felt the stars the clouds and the ants
i saw science in its purest form of magic
life i felt it i was it i was afraid
i battled with myself to be myself
and then cried when i saw the end when there was nothing left
pull myself pull myself back together
struggle to find my focus
fighting and fighting to pull myself back together
wanting a release form the trip
i feel hopeless
struggle fight to return to what i know
and what i know feels so worthless
tug yank punch pray to be the me i know that resides where this earth is
back together again fractions periods and commas i don’t know them
back in the body that betrays me time and again
bu now i sleep rest think in the only place where hope is lives
Darrin Speaks 